I am not a fearful believer!!!....thru the years of my coming into the beloved, i have come to KNOW that there is a God that rules in the affairs of men and that God isn't just a deity..he is a father!...and when you are in his family...all things work together!!!...so therefore I am not a fearful believer...the only things that brings fear in me is disobedience...lack of trust in his word and will...those two have always been the catalyst of my fear...Fear comes when I decide to go my own way as against His way ..Fear hits when I am in doubt of trusting Him becos of my lack of sight into the big picture which he alone knows." .* If u really wanna help me..then do this, pray that by all means I don't miss God's direction for my life*...this was a brother's reply to a question I had asked him in a conversation earlier in the morning on whatsapp ...*i won't pray.i will never pray that prayer u asked.never!!!! To pray that prayer is to insult God!* that was my blatant and blunt reply to His request...before u comment and say what's wrong with that request..is it wrong to ask for that prayer?..NO,it surely isn't a wrong prayer request....the question you should be asking is WHY the need for that prayer request in this instance..my friend was in no mood for humour! My reply obviously was unfriendly to him at the time. It lacked the PITY-FULL compassion of another blind believer(well this is my own thought!) Before the prayer request popped up..i had been trying to stir a conversation which was heading to a cranky valley...(honks!).it was obvious he wasn't at his happiest side this morning...so trust me(grining)i probed further.*where is your humour padi?*...*i think I lost it,a lot on my mind that doesn't require humour* more bait for an already curious cat(dont u think!)..jesus must have a lot on his mind yet scriptures says he sits in the heaven and laughs..that was my what I served him back..just when I thought maybe I should just leave him to sort himself out so I don't become a victim of a cranky mood,he announced..*I'M JUST TIRED EMOTIONALLY AND INTERNALLY DRAINED!*....(gbam! There goes the exclamation of EUREKA!!)...so what's draining u?...(now I sound like a therapist trying to help a patient detect the source of his trouble by his own speakings)..A LOT of THINGS!..then there was that moment of never mind I don't wanna dump my CRAPS on u!...(huh? So you peddle craps now? Well I recycle craps...VALUABLE ONES!!..besides what are you doing with craps,u do know they invite pest....so tell me already! )....wait a minute!!..u must be judging me right now that am just making fun out another person's pain...nah!..u see,I felt this my friend needed alil bit of humour to blow off some emotional steam and put some colours on the internally drained! (my own theory ni o)...it was then the prayer requests came *If u really wanna help me..then do this, pray that by all means I don't miss God's direction for my life,dats d summary of it all.*...now that I have you where I was at the beginning, let's continue..my reply was this..*that prayer request makes me wanna ask u some very blunt questions and smack you over the head....(are you wondering why I said that,keep reading!)..Y are u peddling the crap idea that u gon miss god's direction,makes me wonder what track you are on that is wrong and that could pose a threat of missing God..in defence to that i read this...everyone needs prayers n at this stage of my life am surrounded by dozens of decisions to make n its important not to make mistakes at this stage cos it may be fatal...fatal huh?..hmmm!!..somebody is either not being sincere with Himself or blind to an understanding or not aware we have a father who leads us in the way we should go...i was amusingly irritated but I said..lol,yimu! Only a liar or a disobedient believer talks like that!....(believe me am not being harsh,i was only trying to get him to see something he was missing out on)..*I am a man n almost every decision I stick With are definite*..he continued...blah blah blah...you sound as if you are not a believer,like we don't have a shepherd over our affairs,like you are all on your own.it is not for a man to order his own steps...the steps of the righteous are ordered of the Lord!!!...when I said this he thought I was there to mock and castigate him...that wasn't my heart at all...i just want to offer help..if only he would be patient enough to listen...and see from the perspective of ANOTHER...maybe if he is aware we have a father who bids us come unto him even with out labours...or a Friend who says Casting all your cares upon me for i care for u....or a shepherd who leads us in the way to go...or a father who grants even the undeserving wisdom when they ask in faith....well...i guess I needed to sit down and reaffirm this understanding in myself before I could minister it to another person...i guess I was trying to help a picture of myself in another brother....i'm not a fearful believer....fear comes when disobedience is in play or lack of trust in the shepherd of my soul....there is no fear in God(love)
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