It's the way I choose to deal with stuffs especially when am I feel disappointed about something...
This morning at the gym was great!...i got chatting with the woman I call macho the other time!
Our conversation got really deep and I did commented on her strength and endurance in the few aerobics classes I have been with her...(she has very full long hair that she packed in ponytail and wore her usual green white green track suit)..apparently she is a mother of two kids!...
Somehow we got talking about pregnancy .....she had lost her third baby about two months after he had been born......he had jaundice!!!
*that's the reason why I am here,to get back in shape. I don't want to sit at home depressed...*
She told me that she had been very sick all through out her last pregnancy.so sick that she couldn't walk work all through and had to have a driver take her all around when she needed to get things.
*it was a very painful pregnancy, i had to report every week at the hospital for ante-natal instead of the normal two weeks interval....i birthed him in the 32nd week of my pregnancy!....to think after such painful time,i lost my baby again...God knows best!.* she poured out.
I saw her pain....this woman wasn't just here to work out alone,she was here working out her grief too!!! To have something you so laboured painfully on be yanked right of your hand by death.
Thinking about my conversation with that woman today gave me a clear head on how to deal with my own present circumstance!...
That woman wasn't sitting around feeling sorry for herself...she didn't appear to be nursing anger or disappointment.....(even though she sounded like she might have in the past).....she sounded so loving especially when she was talking about her other two kids
...i perceived her grief had made her more empathic and tender!!!
I was especially moved by her surrender to the care of the all-knowing God our father!
GRIEF really is an ALCHEMIST! it changes you!
So in response to my own feeling of disappointment,I thought to myself....
*If for a greater good,the growth and continuity of a thing (people/organisation)is at the seeming demise of all my plans or the handing over of it to another person...then so be it!!!...
i will just accept it in good faith and pray the Lord open my eyes to how else I can be a blessing to people.....
I also thought again....*seraph! In the work of the lord,NO MAN is INDISPENSABLE !!!....*
We can only labour and sacrifice without regrets when we do it as a response of the love of the father in us...and also when we do it Unto Him alone....knowing fully well that HE who has called us and worked this good in us will NEVER and EVER forget our sincere LABOUR OF LOVE
SO! Away with disappointment, anger,jealousy and every other ill-feeling!!!
We only worked out what he worked in us and yet promises us a reward of HIMSELF!
.............this my friend is peace!
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